Safety First

All the riches

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Before I start today, I wonder if we can take a pause. This year has been monumental in terms of shifts, changes and sideway swipes that I did not see coming. If you are limping to the finish line, like me then do give yourself enormous credit and a big hug. I may feel like I’m last in the sack race, that was always the case, but I am going to enjoy the weak orange squash when I get there!

Having felt like I’ve been in a carwash this last couple of months, I have been so grateful for those moments where I’ve been able to sit with like minded people and just know that it’s not just me.

It has not escaped my notice that there has been a naturalness in complete strangers connecting with me with that instant recognition that we get it, that there doesn’t need to be much said, but we can just agree that this year has been bonkers.

This time last year I had mapped out the whole of this year in terms of what I would provide. It felt good and at the time it felt right. I even felt a bit smug that I’d done so much planning. Fast forward to February and I felt the call to drop everything and retreat. On a lot of levels it came with a feeling of sweet relief.

I burnt down what I had built up, I built new things and then burnt them down too. I finally surrendered and waited. All during this time I was healing things on levels that I hadn’t done before and it took all my courage to face them.

If you are walking away from something, starting again or taking a break, please know dear ones that this is exactly as it should be and you are exactly where you need to be, wherever you are.

Trappings of Success

One of the reasons that I kept going in and out of alignment was the instant draw I felt as soon as I went back into the real world. I was pulled into the energies of hustle almost without realising it. Spirit would keep calling me back and I would resist until the signs was too strong.

The trappings of success are real, I’ve felt them on a collective level. It’s the Tortoise and the Hare, it’s the keeping up with the jones, it’s getting on the same escalator and expecting to end up in a different place.

As clear as day I’ve seen what this means, but yet I STILL get pulled in because the systemic power has been so strong. We are breaking free, bit by bit, but this is centuries of conditioning and programming that we are unravelling.

We have to give it all our attention to find that neutral space. Where we can start building something that works for us, for those that we are here to serve, for Mother Earth as the guardian of the children of the future.

Safety First

I did not have my emotional needs met as a child, that has become clear as I’ve been on the journey longer. No blame, just fact. One of the things that I have had to spend a lot of time doing is working on what it feels like to be safe.

What no-one told me was that once you were back in your body, I was going to feel those instances where I didn’t feel safe as though it was happening today, over and over again.

If I didn’t have the resources to deal with it then, I felt as though I still didn’t have then now. Then on the other hand there were the exact things that I’d put in place TO make me feel safe and protected. These were rooted in controlling what happened and feelings of anxiety. My instances of hypervigilance, reading the room and not feeling what I liked increased tenfold. It has been an ongoing learning experience, one at times that has felt exhausting.

The fact that a spiritual journey is really about giving up control added to to the mix, but recently I’ve had a couple of breakthroughs that I thought I’d share. Maybe these are obvious to you, but they came as a revelation to me.

• Everything that I perceived as safe came from an external place that my subconscious identified. As soon as I realised that there is always a safe place within, I could find it and allow it to be the centre of my universe.

• Where I had given myself safety mechanisms and those no longer became relevant, because I was no longer unsafe, I felt as though I had nothing to ‘cling onto’. I returned to the internal place I felt safe.

• Where I didn’t feel as though I had those resources to feel safe when I was younger, I wasn’t sure where to find them. You guessed it. I found them in the place within.

I am still a work in progress, but each day I understand it a bit more and I get to know what safety looks like. I am happy to end this year feeling safe and that will give me all the riches that I need.

If you have any regular practices or tools that support you in feeling safe, I’d love to hear about them. This is an area that I know I will still need to continue focusing on for some time to come.

The Way Ahead

I have had so much clarity that has come through on what is to come next, some things I have updated on my website, some things are still in the cauldron bubbling. I am tentative about putting too much out there, whilst it’s still being created.

I don’t know how much more I will be on here this year, that is always an unknown, but I’d like to wind down until the New Year. Let’s see what spirit has planned.

I am so grateful for your continued support and whilst I can see things on the horizon, I’m in no hurry to plan anything in advance. Perhaps I have learned something after all!

Discover the Ripe Pickings of your Wild Woman

I almost forgot that I’ve put together some questions, which give you a profile of your Wild Woman from 8 archetypes. I’d love your feedback or a short testimonial. I’ll give you a couple of resources free if you do that. It’s in draft mode, so you’ll need a password, which you can comment below or message me for. Here’s the link.

Blessings of love and magic,

Louise x

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