I infuse this community with love and magic with the intention that all who come into this space have a positive and uplifting experience. Together we are a mighty force of beings raising consciousness for the highest good of all. And so it is.
Well that was definitely some fun had taking a big step away. I am at least open enough to know that being pulled back was for a reason. I have in effect burned down everything to the ground and I’m now rising from the ashes. Dramatic I know, but if I do know something it’s that I definitely have an inner diva.
The world is not the same and nor am I. I can’t wait to share the next chapter with you including a name change. Eek!
I am now excited for what lies ahead, which is very different from when I left you. For that and for your patience and understanding I am truly grateful.
Up until today I was still very hesitant about emerging. There are some fears coming up about where this is going. I don’t feel prepared, because how can I be, I don’t know what is to come? Then I read this post by
on anxiety and grief. It resonated so deeply and it shifted something from a place of vulnerability to something that I could see clearly as the strength of my support for others.That recognition that you are not alone, that there is hope, that there is a way through. The knowing that you could open the door for someone else to an aspect of healing that has been closed. The deep inner knowing that as much as this is for me, it’s for you too. That’s why it matters, that’s why it feels like a biggy, because I care.
I am making some changes in the background, and am planning on restarting paid contribution on 7th May, although this is subject to change. It could be later, but won’t be sooner.
Getting The Message
There comes a point when you have ignored the signs and kept pushing on through with the determination of a band at the end of a back breaking world tour. Dragging yourself onto the stage to perform when you have nothing left. The not so subtle messages will become more obvious until like for me it was a flat just STOP. I literally couldn’t go on as I was and I finally surrendered. A lot of tears and a text to my husband saying “I need to take a break”. My heart melting that bit more when “that’s fine” came back in a second.
I’d love to say that I’ll listen sooner next time, but I can’t promise as I’m still unravelling that part of me. I will say that this time unlike others I surrendered completely. My husband confiscated all access to the internet (at my request). I only did what I wanted to, even if I came up with a list of ‘shoulds’ they were quickly whittled down to ‘wants’, which most days was a walk and reading, gentle drawing, journaling and painting.
You Are Never Alone
On the first morning of my rest, with no Spotify, I plugged in an old CD player and found a Native American CD that I used to play all the time. I was immediately back with my guides in community. The women gathered around me, made me sit, threw a blanket around me, gave me a hot drink and asked me to share, which I did.
Lots of healing followed as I put my complete trust in them. At one point I was standing arms folded and eyes closed being passed gently from person to person, a bit like those games of trust where you have to lean back and hope that someone catches you. Another time being gently, but repeatedly smacked on the shoulder to release energy. All the while no judgement, no expectation, no scolding.
It reminded me that community is more than a gathering, it’s a place where sometimes you receive, sometimes you give, sometimes you speak, sometimes its impossible for you to do so. You are welcome, no questions asked, no measurement or clocking of the time you spend or your contribution. I am bringing that energy here and I will now see you and sense you as part of this very special sacred place for me.
Going Deeper
With all my distractions removed, I was soon consciously aware of my instinct to check for emails, social media, interactions, likes. It felt like cold turkey, which was uncomfortable to acknowledge, but also liberating.
What I discovered was that behind the smoke and mirrors I had been avoiding going down certain paths that were ready to be healed. You might recognise this in yourself or in someone else who needs to busy, can’t sit still, hasn’t got the time to relax. As someone who considers themselves to be a seasoned pro at all things connecting and spiritual, including meditating, this came as something of a shock/embarrassment/wake up call. Some of it I will not share publicly, some of it I will share when I’ve been able to process it.
I’ve done a lot of healing, I mean hours, but what’s been noticeable is that its been so much easier to identify the root causes whilst in a more surrendered state. Going from doing anything in flow to finding myself jarred out it, immediately shows me the altered state I’m in. Some things were hard to acknowledge, some things were hard to let go of. I tried to bring a sense of compassion and forgiveness to it all, but when I found myself getting frustrated, I’d give myself a break and lots of tea and biscuits.
What I’m Keeping
Digital detox is staying. Dedicated time without access not just to social media, but the internet.
Not trying to do everything at once. Spending time working on one thing at at time, everything else will find its space. Just because I’ve received it, doesn’t mean it’s for right now.
Journaling. Something I get out of the habit of doing regularly, but I find so healing and insightful.
Daily immersion in nature, quiet time reading or painting. Non-negotiable, not nice to have.
Sacred pauses. December and January will be dedicated times to pausing and resetting. This means that if you’ve a paid member, you get two months free/added on.
Prioritising my health and happiness. That’s it.
Whilst patience is a virtue, it’s not something that I have in bundles, what I’ve leaned on is trust and faith in the process. That and the concept that time can be stretched to stop the panic stations and the it’s all too late vibe.
A Few Changes
Whilst there were many things that surfaced one of them was the space that I am creating here and what I would like that to feel like energetically to ensure it remains the sacred and nurturing community that I intended.
We may have been given world changing roles, but nothing is worth sacrificing our health and happiness for and I am ready to hold myself to that. Maybe this is an area that you would like some support in too? It’s so easy to get swept away in giving up everything for the cause. For me I’ve learnt that there is really nothing worth pursuing without the balance that brings you the joy and freedom that you went into this hoping to achieve in the first place.
Blessings of love and magic,
Louise x
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So great to read about this version of your rebirth. I hear it so hard because I am forever going through my own version of the same.
It’s taken me years to get to a point of implementing a weeks phone break - this year every other month. Next year every month. Plus most Saturdays.
Cannot wait to read your book!🤓
Oh, my sister, what a beautiful journey you've been on! 💖💖💖 I'm excited to see what unfolds with you, and I'm inspired by you to spend less time online. Actually, I was unplugged for most of last week, and am still vacationing this week with very limited time online. My whole being eases in these times. So much less rigidity, so much more real connection with not only the physical elements around me, but all the unseen ones too.